This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
It is amazing how placing your ITunes on Shuffle can bring you some very philisophical and "meaning of life" thoughts. I am just that sort of person.
I have had an amazing week with an amazing man. We were friends in high school but have really reconnected again since then, and he is now, I am proud to say, my boyfriend.
I thank God every day for the mere chance to be alive but I am really finding joy in every moment. And it isn't just the boyfriend. Though he has a lot to do with it.
Now I'm not 25 yet, but I feel as if I am really making my first steps. Going to Spain, stepping out of my comfort zone to ask someone out, speaking my mind, acting upon my own thoughts, wishes, and desires. I am finding comfort in my own skin and in the life of someone else. In spite of the extreme drama and stress I've been through in the last year, it feels like it was a rough patch of sea I had to sail through in order to get to the beautiful waters ahead. I hope to find my dream job soon and make my joy complete, but God knows what he has in mind for me.
I know life is going to throw me curve balls and that just because I am feeling like everything is (almost) perfect now doesn't mean that everything is going to stay that way. However, I am very appreciative of the blessings I have right now. I am going to do what I can to really savor this joy and happiness and realize that even in my darkest moments, that there is a plan God has in mind. Did I expect to feel this way after the time I've had? Not at all. But I think it is the unexpected nature of all this that really makes me value it. God is good. Life is good.